in all seriousness, I believe that I unintentionally test people to make sure they’ll stay. However, most of them leave, & I realize that it’s my fault for testing them to stay, but it’s their fault for leaving. Once they leave, I realize “oh shit, they’re gone, ” but it’s their choice, so then I just suck it up and move on with my life. There’s nothing you can do to keep someone that doesn’t want to be held down. Didn’t they say if you love someone to let them free? I just hope the freedom was worth it.
I didn’t know that this was going to happen.
I had no clue that she was going to show up and tell me all those things that I didn’t want to hear. I didn’t know what to do, I’ve tried to stay out of it this whole time, I really have. I haven’t brought it up once, but what I am suppose to do when I have two unhappy, good girls, coming to me asking me question as to what they should do. I DON’T KNOW. I can’t help you guys anymore. I can’t keep doing this, it’s way too much to keep up with. I didn’t know that I was going to lose another family member over this. It seems like I become brothers with someone, and then they drop me once they got what they wanted, or once I fuck up, as if they’re just sitting around waiting for me to fuck up. I never mean to lie to you man, I would never mean to hurt you, no homo, but you are like my brother, and I just wanted the best between you and her, so I just texted you and told you that I didn’t want to be in it. I’m sorry, I didn’t know this was going to happen. I understand that I didn’t have to right to tell you what you did was dirty, but what in the fuck was I supposed to do when I had two loyal friends coming at me? I feel like it makes me a bad person, I just don’t know what anyone wants from me anymore. I tried to stay out of it, I have this whole time, until I had my friend coming to my crying, so then I texted the guy that made her cry and told him that I didn’t want to get in it, and now it’s all fucked up, and I feel like I’ve lost my brother, and it fucking sucks, because I’m so tired of losing my family, I just don’t know what else to do, I’m just done right now.